Boulevard of Broken Dreams' Journal

Time:

11:37 am.

i cant believe Codys leaving.
this makes me sad.

Thursday, April 28th, 2005

Subject:	my baby shot me down.
Time:	8:11 am.

I'm almost done with classes for the semester. THANK GOD. I always get fluttered at the end like - contemplating dropping out of school, throwing myself in front of a bus. things like that. haha its funny, I always have these conversations in my head with my mom where I tell her that I'm not coming back next semester. but then Finals get over, and I move back home and summer comes and I'm like - I love ship. hahah. so its like, nevermind. I'm just distressed about money, finals, not getting to see nathan, the cruise, moving. everything.
I wish I had a car.
So I have some summer plans that have me really excited. I think Nathan and I are going to take another weekend trip somewhere. I think we're either going to go to Canada or out west. but we havent decided.
We're going to see The Killers w/ Keane on our one year anniversary. Which will be lovely. In maryland, I'm excited. Then we're going to see a baseball game - The Cubs v. The Phillies in August with my sisters and rocco. And Carly and I were talking about going to see the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame.
so I'm excited for this summer. other than that, i'll just be working. good times. I dont have to worry about money over the summer. I love that feeling.
But I can't believe that it will be a year for us in like a month. thats crazy.
=)

I'm going to sell back my books soon. I hope I get some desent money back. I get pissed when I dont.
Cody is moving to Arkansa. I cant believe that. I'm sad. very sad.
It starts, my college friends are all leaving.

<3
Myla

Wednesday, March 30th, 2005

Time:

3:40 pm.

I'm in the computer lab right now. I decided not to go to my 3:30 class. I'm allowed to every once in a while.
I got into the photography class that I wanted next semester. I can think of a couple of people that should be excited for me to take that class.
Today is gorgeous I love it. But I'm not around anybody who will go and do something active with me. I wish Nathan were around.
Amy went home tonight. She always goes home - it makes me wonder why she even comes back up ya know? I dont get where she gets the money for gas either. Oh well.
One more month and classes will be done. I'm going on a cruise with my friend Emily and her family the week after finals. That should feel good. I just wish I had more spending money, but i have more time to save up.
I dont really have anything to say except for that fact that I LOVE IT OUTSIDE RIGHT NOW. i cant express that enough.

I want to watch Closer.
I love Natalie Portman.

<3
Miss Myla

Tuesday, February 15th, 2005

Subject:	Mrs. Valentine's Day
Time:	9:23 am.

Great weekend.
all my closest friends in one room. loves it.
We all want to sleep with Garritt.
I love being carded. I love being carded. I love being carded.

Oh what a Valentine's day.
I had a sweet guy this year.
This year I had a sweet guy.
I love...(dont finish that sentence)
...him

and if you have a minute why dont we go
talk about it somewhere only we know

so Loverly.

<3
Myla

Thursday, February 10th, 2005

Time:

11:54 am.

I'll be 21 in less than 12 hours!
YEEEHAWWW.

It'll all be legal then.

<3

Thursday, February 3rd, 2005

Time:

11:28 am.

i hate when people dance around me sighing
when i know they want me to say
'whats wrong???'

if you have something to get off your chest...say it.
dont be dumb.
and dont waste my time.

Saturday, January 22nd, 2005

Subject:	too much snow
Time:	7:12 pm.
Mood:	bored.
Music:	The Killers.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Im going crazy being stuck in here all day. I hate it. This is the first time in a long time i have ever been completely bored on a weekday.
Im sooooo disappointed that I cant see Nathan today. :( boo. My mom wont let me go anywhere - obviously...and heaven forrbid he would come see me because thats just too much to ask and im being a brat. even though IM not the one with the SUV...so whos the brat now? poo
I just wish i was snowed in with him. and we could make snow men and have snow ball fights. and drink hot chocolate and watch movies. oh well.
and then tomorrow when i see him im going to be ignored because of football.

im calling off of work tomorrow. haha
i didnt go in today. I could go into work tomorrow but i dont want to. I dont get to sleep in during the week so i want to sleep in during the weekend.
who knows, maybe ill go in,

Nathan and I went bowling last night with Kristin and Garritt. which was fun. but our night was cut short because the dinning room at wendys closes for fucking early. dumbies. Garritt won the first game and Nathan won the second. me and kristin didnt win...oh well. :( I like Garritt hes a sweetie pie.
and kristin and garritt have the same haircut.

my 21st birthday is coming up real quick. i cant fucking wait. im going to go nuts that weekend. because im going out with my roomates on Thursday night at midnight and then we're having a party that friday night with my friends who arent 21 and cant go to the bars with us.
AND THEN that saturday nathan and I are planning our Valentines Day night. which is going to be YUUUUM. haha
i hope it doesnt snow and ruin my weekend. poo.

alright. im going to go watch TV and play with my kitty cat.

<3
Myla

Tuesday, January 11th, 2005

Time:

8:02 pm.

My Mother thinks I am: incompetent
My grandma thinks I am: sweet
My boyfriend thinks I am: good in bed. a lush. "adorable". and a cat in a past life
My best friend thinks I am: wise

Your three best qualities: good listener. fun. I'll make out with you
Your three worst qualities: too sensitive. dramatic at times. insecure
Three things you are often complimented for: my smile. my laugh. my clothes
A compliment you got that made you blush: "You taste like Cheese - Its"
I get embarrassed when: nathan's mother gushes about me
What upsets you the most is: Karen

Do you keep a diary?: since im almost 21, i like to call it a journal
Do you like to cook?: yes
Do you have a secret you have not shared with anybody?: Yes.
Do you fold your underwear?: who has time?
Do you talk in your sleep?: ask amy
Do you bite your fingernails?: No.
Do you believe in love?: Duh. Yes.

Last song you listened to: If you leave - Nada Surf
Last song that was stuck in your head: New Slang - The Shins
Last movie you downloaded: I've never downloaded a movie.
Last DVD you bought: Seinfeld - for my sister's christmas present
Last CD you listened to: Modest Mouse
Last person you called: Megan
Last person that called you: Cody
Last TV show you watched: Friends
Last person you were thinking of: Nathan

Do you wish you could live somewhere else?: yes...North Carolina
Do you think about suicide?: No.
Do others find you attractive?: I have no idea.
Do you want more piercings?: Nope.
Do you want more tattoos?: Gross.
Do you drink?: too much
Do you do drugs?: No.
Do you smoke?: Shuttt up.
Do you like cleaning?: Nooooo.
Do you carry a donor card?: Ok.

Have you ever cried over a boy/girl?: almost daily
Have you ever ever lied to someone?: Yes.
Have you ever been in a fist fight?: nope
Have you ever been arrested?: nope

What shampoo do you use?: hahah.
What perfume do you use?: None.
What shoes do you wear?: depends on the outfit
What are you scared of?: a broken heart

Number of times I have been in love?: Once.
Number of times I have had my heart broken?: once - Thanks Chris Mills- hahaha
Number of hearts I have broken?: A few.
Number of boys I have kissed?: alot
Number of girls I have kissed?: None.
Number of people I've slept with?: two
Number of people I consider my enemies?: i dont think i have any
Number of people from high school that I stayed in contact with?: Four.
Number of CD's I own?: too many to count
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: my name? alot. my picture? once or twice
Number of things in my past that I regret?: Two.

Wednesday, December 8th, 2004

Time:

11:24 am.

OKay so im in the library right now. And ill be here all day.
damn finals.
I just cant wait till they're over.

I went to NYC this past weekend. WONDERFUL. except -- waaaaay too many people around 5th avenue, but then again NO SHIT right? I just wanted to see the pretty window displays.

Today is:
Finals Work Day
Wednesday
The 24th anniversary of John Lennon's death (tear)
6 fucking months for Him and Me. (heart)
Sex and the City night

well anyways, back to work.
Oh and i soooo dont work as much as I thought I was going to over christmas break. which is a totaly BAM! on my part. yay. i get to actually HAVE a break.

such is life.

<3

Thursday, December 2nd, 2004

Time:

1:51 pm.

I watch Laguna Beach.

my grades this semester are going to be horrible. :(
Christmas is coming. <333
yay.
Im getting Nathan and KRISTIN's gifts tomorrow.
then ill be 3/4 of the way done.

My friend who was stationed in Iraq was coming home in January...and now he has to stay. This makes me feel awful. I miss him and I wanted to meet his fiance. I wanted him to meet Nathan. Oh well. such is life.

Im in a John Lennon mood but Nathan has all my cds.

back to homework...

<3

Wednesday, November 17th, 2004

Time:

10:26 am.

as annoying as it may sound...

Im soooooo in love :)
and for the people out there who actually know me,
thats an amazing thing

<3

Wednesday, November 10th, 2004

Time:

9:06 pm.

I cant wait till Friday.
I want to lay on Nathan's bed with him. drink something alcoholic.
have posh purr on my stomach and bitch about my shitty week.

...and then alittle bit of naughtiness

BAM!

Thursday, November 4th, 2004

Subject:	omg an update
Time:	1:09 pm.

yucky day outside today.

thats okay i have a lot of work to do because im going away this weekend

(yay)

I get to see Nathan tomorrow

(yay)

countdown until The O.C season premire - about 8 hours.

Monday, May 10th, 2004

(11 empty boxes | carry away my heart)

Subject:	my my my
Time:	3:56 pm.

John Mayer's music = sex. i love him.

please be the father of my children john.

Monday, May 3rd, 2004

Subject:	i love everwood
Time:	11:39 pm.

please just love each other already!

Saturday, March 20th, 2004

(5 empty boxes | carry away my heart)

Subject:	..i will always love you...
Time:	10:11 pm.
Mood:	chipper.
Music:	The Cure - Just Like Heaven.

Im staying in tonight. I could use the night off.
I went to Shippensburg with Amy this morning and ive been up since 6:00am. which just simply sucks.
I can not wait to get to shipp in the fall..5 months. amy and i both agreed that we will be happier people once we make it there. I Love amy, i couldnt have asked for a better roomie. shes great. she really is. And her and jarris..ugh. i get so jealous sometimes - well not jealous. I mean I am at the point right now where i dont even mind being alone. i dont think about it constantly and it doesnt bother me to see couples or hear about all the adorable things that jarris does for her. but i mean... i cant wait to find something like that for myself. i want to find somebody that just understands me. and supports me through anything. ive never seen a couple so supportive of each other before. they seriously fit together like a puzzle. and i think they are great. and i cant wait for them to be married...or even just engaged which is going to happen sometime this summer before she goes off to school!!!!!! YAY. aww they are sweet. i love them. i love amy. and i love jarris. (his name is pretty cool too).

I had two mochas this morning - im wired. :)

Heath Ledger was on Jay Leno last night. aww. he was adorable even though he looked really uncomfortable. haha i felt bad he kept figiting in his seat and moving around like he wasnt getting comfortable!
SPEAKING OF UNCOMFORTABLE...my legs get cramped up when i drive...what is that?

There is going to be another season of The Simple Life. hahaha. yay.
Maybe kristin will come over and watch it with me again. haha i liked that last time. but that was over break when she wasnt so busy. Oh we didnt go to lunch on friday... but we're going on Monday. which is nice.

im seriously like babbling right now.

stripped of all make up
no need for fancy clothes
no cover ups, push ups
with him i dont have to put on a show
he loves every freckle
every curve...every inch of my skin
fulfilling me entirely, taking all of me in
hes real his honesty
hes loving me for me

I love that song.

"I'll run away with you"

<3333 Goodnight,
Myla

Tuesday, March 16th, 2004

(3 empty boxes | carry away my heart)

Subject:	shhhh
Time:	1:24 pm.
Mood:	cold.

okay so i secretly wanted to go see Britney Spears in concert this summer... but lets not tell anybody out loud. ya'll can keep a secret right? But i think im going to try and go see Christina again. not that i have the money..i already am going to see Aerosmith. oh yeah pretty siked about that one. and hmmm. im waiting on Jessica Simpson.

and the warped tour is coming to hershey. haha i never thought id see the day....those tickets are only 25 bucks. not bad at all. maybe ill try and find somebody to come with me to that. Ill ask sean and ashley....or maybe kristin.. i dont know. ill think about it.

anyways...this weekend.. Shipp with Amy :) yay. and possibly still lunch @ Panera Bread with kristin on friday. but we'll see how it goes.

anyways...back to class.

<3 Myla

Monday, March 8th, 2004